the longest time

this pounding has been in my head for the longest time.
it must end one day.
i know it will never go away.
i feel sickened by the noise.

this lie i have in me for the longest time.
i must wash it clean one day.
it wil keep haunting me.
i adore sincerity.

this sympathy has been clinging on my heart for the longest time.
it must diminish one day.
my heart is already blackened.
i longed for humanity.

this crave i have for destruction for the longest time,
must not be fulfilled today.
my tired eyes still want to see smiling children.
but how long more can i?

my message to you has been held back for the longest time.
i am reluctant to show you the way.
but yet, i want to see you soar beyond me,
before the day i die.

this enclosure has made me numb beyond my agony.
this enclosure i feel is made for this reason.
i longed to feel your hate once again.
for your love is just a plastic tree.

- masa' hakali the blind fortune teller

Despite that...

Despite the place,
That I'm now in,
This corner of my life,
That tells where I've been...

Despite the set backs,
That I face,
Or of the tears,
That leave a trace...

Despite the time,
That distance brings,
Or life's little quirks,
And all other things...

Despite that fact,
That I still live,
Memories of a past,
I can't forgive...

Despite the rains,
That flood the trail,
Despite life's winds,
A force of gale...

Despite the moon,
Laying hidden behind,
The tracks I time,
Within my mind...

Despite harsh words,
Whispered aloud,
Or of the sun,
Behind the clouds...

Despite the way,
Life comes about,
My love for you,
There is no doubt...

-Queen Andromeda of Argos

mayang

hidup ini buat selama.
hidup ini punya arti.
hidup ini punya prasangka.
hidup ini punya tangisan.

mati itu satu alasan.
mati itu satu kurniaan.
mati itu bukan kerana.
mati itu punya makna.

airmata satu igauan.
airmata tidak setia.
airmata andai tiada.
menjadi ia suatu bencana.

cinta itu hanya khayalan.
cinta itu penyambung jiwa.
cinta itu bawa kecewa.
cinta itu hanya sahaja.

lihat.
tanpa degilmu.
dengar.
tanpa egomu.
beri.
tanpa sedihmu.
terima.
tanpa kejimu.

sayangmu itu, biarlah ia kembali kepada yang memberi...
cintamu ini, takkan biar dipaksa andainya tiada lagi...

tidurlah adinda.

- megat arman bidayu, laksmana tua pasir sejati