confessions

i am the shimmering glass in your false existence.
i am the believer of foreign gospels.
i am the omen of your neglected premonitions.
i am the shaman that craft your spells

i feel i need to diminish the love in my heart.
i feel i need to feel the love for my faith once again.
i feel i need to tear these worlds apart.
i feel i need to destroy everything before it even begin.

i want to be the white wizard for your soul.
i want to be the paladin your world needs so bad.
i want to be appreciated and respected for my role.
i want to not feel the miserable void whenever i am sad.

i cant help it if the world crumbles before my feet.
i cant help it if you harbor much hatred for me.
i cant help it if you wished that we could have never meet.
i cant help it that only sadness and misery are all you can see.

i need you to show me how to slay a heart.
i need you to stab me a million times in my chest.
i need you to believe that we are a trillion worlds apart.
i need you to be eternally with me when we finally come to rest.

no words can ever explain how madly in love i am with you.

- the fool in the photograph