friday christmas

feel me inside the silence
of rustling thoughts on a friday christmas.

i falter though i stood my ground,
it was an empty box wrapped in a pale blue ribbon.

no spirits can bring me up
no demons can crash my faith.

i am a liar of my own conspiracy
for i am the murder of my own gospels.

friday christmas, please come,
so that you may disappear in the void of the night.

i am just a person.
i am a non believer of you,
friday christmas.

- andany the boy of tragedy

phoenix

no, i am here
sunning my little
torn memories

as i tried to
ask my heart
aah... about love

i tried to be
skinless about the
pain in my soul

he said it was an
essay for those
who musn't die from
overfed dinosaurs in our heads

how i adore you
fate is too cruel
for us to share a bond

i knew we can never be
even before we
were here at all

- evar ella'sal the forsaken prince of the crows

Prayer for the 3 Kings

I am your night though as visible as day.
I am your loyal general, countless minions I slay.

I am your mighty steed, I gallop you home in victory.
I am your trusted sword, the millions blows you protect with.

I am your throne, the golden chair only meant for you.
I am your crown, which only time will tell its heir.

I am your armour, of brazen steel and gold.
I am your shield, of the dragon horse so bold.

I am your mind my sire, the one irreplacable by gold.
I am your heart my lord, the one who gave you tears.

My kings, so there be peace in your battlefield hearts.
My kings, so there always be Allah in your souls.

My saviours, so there be none of poverty left for us.
My saviours, so there be enlightened paths for us to follow.

O' Allah, please keep my kings far from harm.
O' Allah, enforce my kings so they won't fall.

O' Allah, please answer this prayer with Your Almighty Wisdom & Generousity.

Amin Ya Rabbal Allamin

- ArIrFan the humble servant of Allah

the happy field

here i am again
i am walking through this field
finally

i will walk further
and longer
this time around

my regrets has been
abolished
away for good

i am looking for
the shade
so i may rest a while

but alas, i am too quick
to be happy
like always

the rain clouds
came again
like how it left a while ago

now i must
look for the shade
quickly

another field
is just to troublesome
to find

i must hurry
to find that cottage
somewhere

one more year
to go before
everything is alright.

i hope you understand me,
my love.
i always adore you.

forever.

- iona the grasscutter

Mantera Dapat Kerja

Jemu, penat, meluat, berpeluh.
Terlalu banyak telah ku tempuh,
dan setiap kali juga aku mengeluh.

Dulu menyangkal segala rasa,
sering dinobat laksmana frasa.
Punya taraf dan juga kuasa.

Tempuranku bukan pistol dan pedang,
perahan mindaku menjadi senapang,
tapi kini, terhimpit dan telanjang.

Kemelut ekonomi menjadi-jadi.
Aku antara mangsa yang tersembunyi,
dibelenggu hutang, kehilangan diri.

Wawasanku kini semakin pudar,
setiap hari terpaksa bersabar.
Sesuap nasiku terancam, tercabar.

Ijazah, diploma tak pernah ditanya,
tak guna juga sarjana muda kerna
rimbunan kerja perlu 'dwi-bahasa'.

Namun aku bukanlah pengecut,
tetap mengejar walau terhincut
menangkap peluang yang sentiasa memecut.

Simbahan neon kotarayaku
menjanjikan mimipi yang seribu satu.
Pencarianku takkan terbuntu.

Semua ini dugaan dunia semata,
dari kelas ijazah Yang Maha Esa.
Harapan cerah ditentukan masa.

Ku tak berani mengaku kalah,
walau hidupku menjadi payah.
Ku kan berjuang takkan menyerah.

Insya'allah

here, then, now, forever

i have read your suicide note.
i am not mistaken it is yours.

so die alone.
leave it all behind.

don't fret your death.
hereafter is never painful.

as for me it will never end here.
i cherish my immortality.

in words, of course.

- Yoji Espada the beloved son of Hate

Selamat Tinggal Melayuku

Ku kan pergi tanpa doa restu lanjutmu.
Ku kan tinggalkan bulat-bulat semata-mata
kerna kau contohi bangsa yang kan pupus.

Selamat tinggal hari dan girang
ketika ku di pangkuan dan asuhanmu.
Di pimpin tanganmu yang bertatu naga.

Terima kasih ku ucap buat semua kekasihku
yang berambut perang dan bertindik mukanya.
Hanya denganmu ku tahu erti maksiat.

Kata kasihku kepadamu yang mengajar
aku mengira dan menghitung angka,
ketika beratur menikam nombor toto.

Hanya maki hamunan menjadi zikirmu,
dengan siul-siulan dan lagak gayamu.
Kenapa keganasan saja yang kau agungkan?

Percayamu pada ketahyulan mengatasi
Yang Maha Kuasa; bermacam jarum sudah ditanam,
demi mengejarkan ide kuno kekebalan jasad.

Aku sering megahkan keberanianmu,
memotong dan mencincang seterumu.
Tapi kenapa kau menangis dikamar penjara?

Gundah dan hiba hatimu itu
diterjunkan dalam lautan air keras.
Adakah solat dah tak menenangkan?

Si naga-naga terbang melangit,
hendak si gagak sentiasa mengejarnya.
Menghisap najis dadah seumpama mimpi buruk.

Aku serik sudah dengan nasihatmu itu.
yang perlu diubah bukanlah mereka.
Sadarlah dari khayalmu itu!

Bermusim sudah berlalu pergi tapi,
tamadunmu tetap disesia.
Bangun oh Melayuku, kita ditinggal jauh!

(published in pg14, Berita Minggu, 26th April 2009/30th Rabiulakhir 1430)

these days we march

the uncalled epiphany of the restless and the numb
displays its rejoice in such rabid moments.
a remembrance of how volatile the air we breathe in.
the portrait in our memories of life, the way we want.

it is useless my friend, to arm yourself in brink of peace.
but nevertheless the tragedy keeps repeating.
i used to walk my twenty minutes in a field of gold
but these days we march to the morgue faster than we walk.

i know the world is a dirty place, filled with love and happiness for the rich.
but in times like these, we keep calling out for the beauty in our existence.
you could have had that life you wanted, if not for the things you see.
you could have lived like the general's wife and be who you could have been.

i am asleep when the words were revealed.
the birch tree branches were the only witnesses.
these songs are the only truth that we could have.
my singers are beings from the skies we call home.

- terra the legionnaire

last few days

i am here no longer,
my body has shown its wither.

my dreams have not been met,
all i can do now is to forget.

my prayers were never really there,
i guess i shall die in despair.

i am afraid but i am not,
because i know it is all my fault.

i wish i could reverse this,
just as simple like a kiss.

but it is all too late now,
i only have this much that time allows.

this pain is piercing through my chest,
i just know that this will be my final rest.

i want you to know that i'll keep our love ablaze,
especially in these last few days.

i will leave you soon enough,
and i hope all this wont be tough.

i know i should have listened to you,
but i just act as if i had no clue.

i guess the smoke has finally consume me,
shown me my last and final agony.

i have to tell you that i'll always be here,
maybe i wont but probably i'll appear.

if you just stay and listen to the walls,
you will probably hear my silent calls.

i am sorry i have to go, i really am.
i wish you safe and sound and hope you do good for your exams.

- rave

twenty swords

spin the holster and see my shine as part i am
of the twenty swordsmen

lick my blade oh unfortunate tongue as who you were
my prey

fearsome eyes and masks of steel
still i slash through you, i am the seventh sword

my sins were never there im just a tool,
of only time may tell of death

i am just a tool of reckless men
who cut open your hearts and call it deed

my hilt be hold by thousand murderers
and yet i am a saint

my edge has tasted so many necks and so be
my creation

my heart remains as pure though I have slain a million

- andulian of aragorn's torso

the holy balancer

grief not ye lost souls who lost your humanity,
i shall purify your darkest vengeance
do not be lost o humanity that be enslaved in your freedom of life
i will be your only solace

speak to me in your forsaken language of love
so i may destroy and annihilate any of your emotions
sing to me in your enchanted melody
so i may dischord your joy and laughter

i am the holy balancer
i am your brother dear
i am your darkest fear
i am your only lover

my only creation of misery
has proved you to be the lasting adversary
when you stood up to me
and said that you loved me

i am but the holy balancer.
i reverse your sins to love
i nullify your forgiveness to hate
and i turn your regrets to happiness

leave you i should and kill you i would
my sense of time repeats itself
on this everlasting cycle of agony
and my weary soul that has no heartbeat

my wings faded the night to day
and my clamoring voice shall wake the sun
just to hear you cry
when you see my alluring eyes

my eyes, my sinful eyes
my voice, my wretched voice
my face, behind my eternal mask of bliss
my heart, which yearns your darkest kiss

and i am sorry for all that has been lost.
and i am sorry for being created
the holy balancer
of love and hate

- saffira the accursed holy balancer

rodeo jones

Over my hand flew a snow white dove
When'd she disappear into the sun?
He has a halo, for dreams return to dust
Words dissolve on the page like tears in blood

Out from my hand flew a snow white dove
When'd she disappear into the sun?
I am bleeding
Oh, I'm in need of love

When Shakespeare sang err on err
And so I sing
When Shakespeare turned dust to dust
So too my love

White sand in between the waves
Well, I call these words 'We'll meet someday'
Across the ocean where my heart burns
Was it you I saw under the pale moon?

When Shakespeare sang err on err
And so I sing
When Shakespeare turned dust to dust
So too my lov

When we're running from lost love
Leaving punctured skin on the floor
Was it you I saw under the pale moon?
Woe bleeding heart

So while I wept, lying imagery
Wait for someone blind
Woe for one day, his eyes were saved
Wait for me there


- jeremy enigk, sunny day real estate